what i want????

my life must be change, my life must be better, i want see my father happy, alm. my mother happy, familly and my best friends are happy, but sometimes i think what happines in my life:
- with my familly
-with my friends
-with someone who love me
i donknow!!!!!
but someday i will find my happines.. it must be a real in my world not only in my dreams ^_^ insyaallah amin...